11:21 PM
helloz..well..so sianz today..so went to friendster..den went to read soe bulliton about how u noe you're in love bla bla bla those stuffs..while readin and after reading them..this is wad came into my mind...so wad if you're thinkin bout him i'm in love..yes..i admit i am in love..but so wad..!!..bgr love dosent seem so NICE to mi as i first thought it would be..e first time i fell in love wif this particullar HIM..i fell so reakin deeply in love wif him..yes..i thoguht this would go on and on until we get married..

HOW DUMB CAN I BE..?!?!

some how we ended up breaking..i tried so hard to climb out of that deep hole i fell in..but i juz cant seems to get out..i fell so in love that i could not get OUT of it..how "wonderful" ..sigh..now all HE do is juz ignoring mi all day long..and i ask him why.."i juz wanna forget you..so ignore you is e bez way"..or at least something like that..as long as it's coz he wanna forget mi that y he ignore mi..

HOW DUMB CAN GUYS BE..?!?!

my gosh.!..sigh..if it was mi..i wont bother to ignore u..i'll juz treat u as a normal fren..coz it;s seems to mi that if i wanna ignore someone that i love very much..firstly i will feel very hurt inside..secondly..wheneva i tell myself to ignore him..more of e things about him will appear in my mind..sigh..i donno..

one of my best fren told mi that he still likes mi alot..coz usually when guys say they are tryin to forget a gurl that they like..in actual fact they still like that gurl very much..so i donno..i'm really confused..!!..there was once when daddy scolded mi..i forgot why..but it wasnt a big matter..den i lock myself in side my room and started cryin like no body's business..den i donno why on earth did i did this..was that i started so called tourchring myself badly..until now there's some scratches left on my hand..sigh..n i was cryin a freakin long time oh more than an hour..!!!!

i think now e best thing is juz pray and ask GOD to lead mi throught this mess i mad..

Friday, June 10, 2005

__i have the courage to love you no more__




i love that special YOU ,
and it will never change .
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but it's just that i think ,
i have the courage to love you no more .
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<3